Posts Tagged ‘love’
How are you all lately? Finally, I have taken the guard to come back to my quiet space and update myself. I have a news here!
I am getting married in another 9 days!
I still couldn't believe it. I mean, I couldn't believe that I am marrying Calv after years of dating. Of course, I am happy and excited because I am marrying to my soulmate. One thing which I am pretty aware of - my singlehood is going to end in another few days!
Another round of OMG!!!!
I am grateful and thankful for the journey which I have been through with Calv and I pray that we will be blessed with a loving and happy marriage together as a couple, a spouse, a teamplayer, a business partner (emm.. what type of business?), a parents, a family or... probably just as simple as 'you and me'.
In the meantime, I would like to thank to all my readers who have been following my chapters of life between year 2007 till now despite of my frequent disappearance. Often, I curved a secret smile on my face when I am thinking of some funny comments from you, or feeling touched remembering the warm support from you, or pushing myself to stand firm on my two feet while enduring a hard moment after recalling a harsh but true comments from some of you. Although it has been years and my Disqus comment system had eaten all the old comments *mourn*, you guys are still in my mind.
Hence, I would love to share this moment with you - a moment where the bride-to-be is excited with 'double-hood', nervous with the future has for her, happy to love and be loved and thankful with whatever she has right now before moving into a new book (well, not just a new chapter anymore). Let us cheers this moment with a smile.
Thank you and I love you <3>3>
Probably some of you are not aware that I am being proposed on the 12.12.2012!!!
Although it has been 1.5 month, I seriously still couldn’t believe it!
While typing this out, the ring is clinging on my right finger. Well, I hardly wear ring since childhood (except those that are made using straw and flower stem). So, it still creates the unfamiliar experience whenever I wear it. By the way, I don’t wear the ring often because I am worried that constant use of whiteboard marker at school and my clumsiness will spoil the ring. I am not a good care-taker so this time, I am determined to be one, for the sake of the ring which symbolized his love.
I have always intended to write a full long post on the proposal. However time doesn’t seem like wanting to be my friend lately. Well, it is ok because there is a videoclip created by one of my friends, Steve that recorded the moments.
Till now, my cheeks will still turn red whenever I watch or recall the moment.
Shocking. Drama. Loving. Precious.
To some of you who do not understand Mandarin, it might be difficult for you because all the actor and actresses conversed in Mandarin.
Again, thank you to those who participated and contributed in my very special proposal day. Thank you for your love, care and blessing ?
I had written my 2012 Review for almost a week in Facebook and I think it is best that I just CTLR+C and CTRL+V here. It is the beautiful memories that I wanted to share with even if you are not in my Facebook ;)
2012 has been an amazing year. Never had I thought that it will end so quickly! What had happened yesterday was like a dream, so beautiful and meaningful.
There are so many 'first times' I encountered throughout the year 2012:
- First time having my own room
- First time being a teacher
- First time helping Calv in house moving
- First time being a DSLR user
- First time receiving salary
- First time treating my parents on expensive restaurant
- First time making doodle notes
- First time cooking for Calv Seet
- First time owning a Bamboo device!!!
- First time being crazy over Instagram (Follow me @curryegg !)
- First time having an iphone as present
- First time meeting a long-lost childhood n NS friend
- First time squeezing out all my creative juice for creative assignment.
- First time seeing my students’ drastic achievement in academic and attitude
- First time buying 24 books in a month!
- First time paying for my passport.
- First time having birdies photography session
- First time flying to oversea with Calv
Me and my TFM collabs in our traditional attire.
One of the activities that my students enjoyed the most ;)
My DSLR and I!
Sorry. Not Halal. By the way, this picture was ‘stole’ from his photo album =P Oopss.. Ok. Pretend that you have not read and seen this picture so that I can tell you more in details by continuing my Love Story Part 3. Oh... and first time receiving so many blessing and like from you guys in FB! Thank you.
Of course, there are other down 'First time' such as:
- First time crying in front of the students
- First time being so lost and down
- First time not blogging for 100 days!
Well, I am thankful that my good 'First times' are higher than the opposite one ;)
Of course, not to forget my highlighted first time:
- Being *cheated by a bunch of friends and relatives because of Calv.
- Being proposed under such an unpredicted circumstances
- Being hold by a ring
- Owning a custom-made diamond ring
- Having face so red and warm throughout the week!
2012 was indeed an adventurous and eventful year that i will never ever forgotten. Thank you for the year and I am ready to jump on my new 2013 chapter. I know that it will be my legendary year and I shall reveal the reason day by day, till I do my another end of year reflection again.
Happy New Year and let's turn our 2013 as our canvas and be an artist to paint the way we want it to be!
Special thanks to:
My parents, Calv's family, my best buddies, TFM friends, LDOs, principles, teachers, students, students' parents, blog readers and you. You guys have played an important role in my life. Of course, you.. my dear Calvin. Love you all ?
Sorry. Not Halal. By the way, this picture was ‘stole’ from his photo album =P
Oopss.. Ok. Pretend that you have not read and seen this picture so that I can tell you more in details by continuing my Love Story Part 3.
Oh... and first time receiving so many blessing and like from you guys in FB! Thank you.
I've officially fallen ill after gobbling down all the yummy food this fall. Moreover it doesn't help when my husband is a food enthusiast, he loves making small meals and experimenting with new dishes, this man makes my tum tum happy.
Don't say I never do anything hor, I clean up after him, do dirty dishes and burp loudly to applaud his cooking every time, without fail.
This X'mas is a quiet yet exciting one, is our first time playing host so We invited my family over and our good friend/s, a couple that happens to be our distant neighbours at Punggol to enjoy this not so quiet evening (because I was making hella lot of noise) afterall.
I rushed to the nearest Diaso to hunt for last min buys, managed to get a few items and a lot of nonsenses and started decorating my place when I got home.
See that 'Merry X'mas' writings on that glass divider (right)? I looked high and low for a whiteboard marker around my house and started sketching out the letters when I finally found a mini black and red one. To my disappointment these erasable markers were too powerless as the letters wasn't obvious enough, I then picked up my mighty permanent marker and started going over the weak impressions. Damn! I was so happy when the glass wall was filled with my amateur writings, So I gleefully wake my napping husband to show him my accomplishment.
You can imagine his horror when he realised I used a non-water soluble marker to write on my wall. He was sending out warning signs the whole time that I'll be dead if I can't erase the wordings at the end of the day. *panicky*
In the end I used my most powerful tool-- > Nail Polish Remover
I decided since is a celebration we might as well do it the Christmas way, made it compulsory for everyone who came for the party to get a gift between $15-$20 bucks for exchange.
My mom and my brother happened to get 2 Identical sets of gifts from my friends, wah lau for my family but awesome for me, I forcefully asked my brother to pass me the duplicates so I can has one set at my hause. Swee~
Gift I got from my youngest bro
Everyone Was laughing at me when I opened up my youngest brother's gift because it looked like a gift with the least effort put in and also deep down I knew he left the buying task to my parents (even worse).
Photoframe & chocos, how nice.
But I'm not complaining, I didn't regret even 1 sec hosting this X'mas party.
However, I got the last laughed when my Husband opened his, it was from my father.
My dad actually bought a wait for it...... wait for it.......jewellery box for XCHANGE?! Laugh die me!
Actually my dad already hinted me a few days before the X'change that he hope I will like my gift, I suppose he really dunno the rules to this game, anyone can get hold of his gift!
In the end I got more than I asked for, my hands are full with my bro, mom, youngest bro and my husb's gift! Hahah *Evuril laughter*
Additional gifts from our/my friends,
Vaseline lotion pack.
Excellent timing! I'm running out of lotion.
Thanks Tam and Jian Ping
Shatter by OPI ( Nail pic at the end of the post)
Calth Kidson coin pouch and Mirror
TWG Miraculous Mandarin Tea
Thanks Siew Wei!
I got another big package from Watsons, everything was stored in this gigantic sock.
I used it as one of the decor for my Christmas party, something that brings up the the holiday mood.
Angry Birds Dust Plug
Actually Tammy and Jian Ping gave me a pair of these dust plugs too but of a different design, so I swopped one of them and give the other set to my friend!
Giving and sharing, this is what Christmas is all about!
I have plenty but is never enough, my face needs water, thank you!
Angry Bird Space Multi-USB Port
(from top-Coral Pink LS008 lipstick, Pink Wink LG102 Lip Gloss & Hedonist HK05 Nail polish)
With OPI Navy Shatte NLE63 (given by Rebek)
Models Own Smokey Eye Kit Sassy TR006
It comes with 2 mini angled brush of the same size. I'm not sure if there's a glitch in mine because it'll be a little weird if you have 2 of the same brushes in a set.
Colours are very pigmented but the black is losing out a little. I'm not sure if is the brush that is not picking up the colour that well, shall try that out with a denser brush.
A collection of Watsons Vouchers. More falsies eh? :P
And thank you all for the X'mas cards!
I've put them up on my fridge!
Merry X'mas Dblchinis!
Posted by: MsXeRoZ Nicole
October 22nd, 2012 >> Posts
Don't panic here, my best friend is not cheating. Well if she's cheating then probably its with me, JK lol haha..*so lesbo* I was on my way to work and as usual tuned in to Malaysia's Red.fm (FM104.9 klang valley).Well, the topic of discussion today was
"Your best friend has cheated (two-timing) on his girlfriend/boyfriend. So, would you tell his gf/bf that he/she is cheating?"
Well this topic's scenario actually bring me back to my university years when one of my best friend did that to her boyfriend. At that time, she not only cheated on her boyfriend, but her gang of best friends too. It was also the incident that cracked our relationship and we were no longer best friend. So let me tell you the story here.
She was a angel, loved and adored by numerous guys but she loved the one who loved her. This guy would die for her. And as her friend, I truly happy that she abandon her wild ways to love this guy. After few years into the relationship, one famous flirt came into the picture and she was infatuated with his words and action and she dwelt deeper and deeper with this second guy. It was so obvious from her speech, body languages and she even set specific ringtone for this guy, that it is impossible for others not to find out about it, yet alone her boyfriend.
The funny part of this whole story is, her boyfriend's friends lay their loyalty towards her, and not him. None of his friend told him (as far as I know) and this poor boyfriend was left in the dark. It was also at this point some other friends told me that the girl ordered people to hide the truth from me (she must have think I'm blind or stupid) because I will interfere and tell her boyfriend.
The whole scenario I saw and was keeping mum on it. I never questioned her nor confront her. She must have known what she did was wrong that she didn't have the courage to face me, her best friend and had to lie to me whenever she wants to go out dating with the 2nd boyfriend. I was exasperated but I have a rule that I have been sticking to "If he ask me, I would tell the truth. If he didn't then so be it". And it was one stormy night that her bf called, asking her whereabouts that i told him she went out. He was furious, because I think he warned her to stop seeing that guy. I didn't even know who she went out with, and where did she go, so I didn't tell him anything.
And he came, we looked for her around our rented house. Until she came back and said she was talking on the phone with another guy friend all the while so her phone couldn't get through. After that I don't know what happened as the whole scenario made us distant. For I guess I'm the only one who oppose her with this flirt, and for being the one disgusted with my other friends for being loyal to a person that i felt not worthy of. But deep in my heart, i was jumping with joy when the boyfriend managed to reconcile with her and she stopped seeing the flirt.
Years has passed, and I no longer bear the disgust anymore. What's left to me is a question - Was I really that good friend after all?
Why, you ask? I think that if I am really that good friend of hers, I would have confronted her and asked her what had happened. I didn't. When I heard that she banned others from telling me the truth, I would act as a moral police and reprimand her, I was so angry and hurt that part of me wished she got caught and dumped by her boyfriend (at that one moment only). So, I didn't confronted her and let my own judgment get in the way.
Well let bygones be bygones. And if the same thing were to happen again to any of my best friends I will do the same "As long as your boyfriend didn't come to ask me about your flings, I will not tell. Plus, I will not lie on your whereabouts and who you are with, if i know of it".
What about you? Will you tell or not? Let's share opinions!
Blogged from my Phone
Posted by: MsXeRoZ Nicole
October 2nd, 2012 >> Posts
Breaking up, in general is a milder version of divorce.Milder, because you don't have an official paper that is written black and white. And both the couple didn't took an oath to truly love, care, and nurture each other their whole life. It is in a sense that a couple decided that they cannot go on to be together, hence decided to part ways. Parting can be "let us still be friends mode" or "from henceforth I declare you my mortal enemy". But of course it is not as easy as it sounds. Breaking up means parting from the person you love, or once loved. And being together for a period of time, you had never been alone. So, breaking up moment is so very crucial in gaining back your individual self and throughout the process there's this factor called "miss" and/or "regret" which makes things cloudier.
I have fell in love twice, broke up twice and reconciled once. And i find it a very tedious process in a relationship. When I see people surrounding me that supposed to be married, instead, broke up. I couldn't help myself but gasp aloud. But what even shock me further when situation arise as follows:-
A) the breakup victim isolate himself/herself, cannot move on, with suicidal thoughts or action; or
B) "hi everyone, meet my new gf/bf called Honey"
Both situation cause me to be awkward! In the first scenario, yes, suicidal and depression is a norm after breakup. But, don't ever let this negative thoughts conquer you. Do you think your death will ever make any difference? Do you think she/he will come back to you after you died? Do you think she will die for you to join you in the underworld?
On another hand, as in scenario B, just as the news of break up just reached your ears and you saw him/her holding another girl/guy. What will be your reaction? What would you do? Approach the new couple or act like you didn't see? It happened to me and I totally failed in acting, I wanted to act sporting, and display those expression of "new gf only mah", instead I nod my head like so many times and my eye opened so wide as though in terror. You see, please forgive my rudeness haha. Personally, I kind of felt that it is disrespectful for either partner if any one of them moved on too fast, say like a couple of weeks time. For me, it takes time to fall in love, and it takes even more time to fall out of love.
Does it take forever to forget someone you once loved?
Or does it only takes a couple of weeks?
I guess both you and I have no answer for this question. All is left in the hands of Master Fate.
What is your take on breakups and moving on?
Blogged from my Phone
Well, I think my blogpost title should be written as ‘An Awesome 25th Birthday’ instead of using only the ‘happy’ word because, I did have an awesome one! ;)
A couple of weeks ago, I have ‘upgraded’ my age with new number. Till now, I still couldn’t believe that how fast time has past and I am back into square one again, embarking another historical journey of my life. Isn’t it miraculous? It creates a feeling of reborn that inspire me to start all over again to make my new age more meaningful and purposeful.
And, it is a great start by receiving this unexpected gift from Calv, a day before the actual date.
I couldn’t believe my eyes when I see this!!?
Calvin Seet drew another masterpiece and this time on my present paper??
Isn’t it unique and lovely?!!
I admire and fall in love with his creativity and sincerity though it is a combination of 8 pieces of A4 (new and recycled) papers with cellophane tape sticking them together.
Initially, he was worried that I would be unhappy because he didn’t wrap the present traditionally with proper present paper. Well, seriously I love this more than commercialized present paper because artwork means sincerity, sincerity means love, isn’t it?
What had raced my heart even more is THIS:
*pointing at the following photo of mine*
It’s a Bamboo!!! OMG!!!
I couldn’t believe it even till now that I have a BAMBOO!!! It’s a drawing tablet for art-lover. Google if you want to find out more about it as I could sense that some of you are feeling weird that it doesn’t turn out a bamboo tree but, a flat black device. Lol…
I love Calv’s thoughtful present so much. He knew I love drawing, sketching and doodling. Throughout the year, he has observed my interest and passion in sharing my art with family members, friends and blog readers online. Besides, he always heard that I made art stuff as teaching material for my students. With the hope to expand my creativity and bring my passion into a higher level, he did some researches before buying this tablet.
Here are some of my latest masterpieces in my purple journal (I named it my purple journal because the skin is purple!).
Discovered my niece’s photo album with fairy theme. It has reminded me of my childhood, thus I sketched it in the book.
I always feel loved and lucky to have such a considerate, loving and caring partner. The moment when he told me that he had actually prepared my birthday present a week earlier before his flight has melted my heart. He was worried if flight delay happened, he might be late to give it to me.. *touched*
Well, I couldn’t ask more from him as he has always given his best, all the time to make me happy, including this precious dinner at Umaiyah on my actual date.
Japanese food is rarely his favorite because he dislikes raw food (like salmon sashimi. how can!? so nice right?) and seaweed. Despite of his personal disinterest, he still took the effort to smile and forcefully said,
“Let’s go for Japanese food. I loooooovee Japanese food”.
Well, little things like this matter most to me. Probably to most of the girls too.
With my favorite bouquet of roses in my hand while wearing my new hot red dress, my birthday ended awesomely. Of course, the night wouldn’t be perfect without my charming partner ;)
Thank you dear for creating me such a memorable and sweet birthday. I know, it will be a good start of the year for me. May God always blessed you with good health, wealth, loves and wisdom. I love you!
In the meantime, please look forward to my new creation using Bamboo ;)
|Hugs to Tingting too! ?|
? Lots of love ?
Continued from [Part 1]
I found myself cuddled my booster tightly before the sunray dominating my body, as a sign of ‘hey-it’s-almost-1-and-you-should-wake-up!’.
The morning was cold because of the rain that poured heavily before dawn. The weather was just nice to continue another hours of sleep – but I didn’t.
I was still affected with yesterday incident – very much indeed.
It took me a full 12-hours to digest what had actually happened last night, when Calv re-confessed his feeling to me after the Bumbu Bali dinner. I still remembered how both of us were sitting quietly in his car, with no background music
but could track my heartbeats sound, very close to my apartment under the bright moon.
I could feel my furious heartbeats and burning cheeks when Calv expressed his feeling and intention gently with such a phrase, “Kelly, I realized I like you and wonder if you could give me a chance and consider me?”
It was somehow funny to listen to his old-fashioned way of confession – very polite, structural and gentlemen, like watching the oldies movie. But then, it was part of the bonuses on the process of unlocking my heart. However, the funny thing was, I rejected him by saying, “Yes, I will consider”. In an instant, he politely replied in a business-like-manner, “Ok. Thank you for considering” and drove away after dropping me home safely.
That was how my night ended with a bouquet of roses I brought back home with sweet smile curving on my face, yet tense because I need to come up with a decision.
Note: Mum was surprised to see the flowers. She admired the flowers and teased dad for not buying her anything big like this in their almost-30-years-of-marriage. Dad ended up ;hating’ and blaming Calv (he hadn’t seen him) for buying me such a big bouquet of flowers because it made him look bad =P
While still lying on the bed, in that chilling morning, I murmured to myself, “Should I or shouldn’t I? Accept or not accept? Be in a relationship or continue single? Calvin or not Calvin?”.
These were the questions I frequently threw onto myself ever since the last date with Calv. Well, I knew I like him but I am not sure whether am I ready for a new relationship. The roller-coaster ride of emotion from my previous 4 years relationship failure had hit me hard from the inside. My ex’s unfaithfulness had greatly affected my trust on guy and the possibility of building a long-term relationship. (Well, I didn’t share much of this chapter of mine as I think, it is not worth giving attention on).
However, I believe in God that he loves me and he must have a better plan awaiting me somewhere in the future. All I have to do is to mend the broken heart, enjoy my life to the fullest, improve myself, receive God’s love and trust his plans for me and my future partner – because I know, there must be someone who will love and appreciate me with all his heart – my another half.
So, is Calvin The One?
Is he whom God has prepared for me?
Are we compatible?
The dilemma continued throughout the day and week before he asked me out again. This time, he invited me to an event at a club named, The Roots organized by one of his friends, Nigel Sparks (MC) to celebrate his company, Negative’s first year anniversary.
This time, I invited my 2 close friends and had an amazing time together. That night, spending with Calv and my friends did draw my bond closer to him. It has allowed me to see another side of him – friendly, funky and funny.
He did introduce me to his friends during in the event. When I was not noticing, he secretly replied to his friends when they asked which one is his gf, “Not yet but I hope the short hair in white shirt will be mine someday”.
Though the place was filled with loud music and people’s conversations, I could still hear his reply. That immediately made me blush. Like real blush… >.<
We joked, danced and drank throughout the whole event. It was funny to see him dancing – like a penguin maybe? Lol..
There was a time, after the event where he hold my hand when he found me dangerously crossing the road. I was on alcohol effect because the bartender continuously offered free-flow of coke+vodka at the event. It was my first time taking vodka and yes.. I was 45% drunk?
Well, the drunk-part is not important. What is more important is that.. HE HOLD MY HAND AND CROSSED THE STREET is a bigger alarm bell. Although I was 45% drunk, I could still feel the warmth of his hand and my fast beating heart-beat.
Secretly, I hope the moment could freeze a little longer so that he could continue holding my hand while both of my friends where watching from behind. “Are they smiling at us? Or are they shocked?”. I could no longer pay attention anymore.
Am I in Winter Sonata? *triple blushed*
After the event, we become closer to each other. Like he had promised, he will not bring out the question until I’m ready with an answer. I am grateful that he is a considerate man.
Well, it wasn’t too long for the question to pop up again. The time had finally revealed itself. I know I should make the decision, sooner or later. Well, to be or not to be? To accept or not to accept. To love, or not to love?
The state of dilemma could only last for another night before a life-change-decision was made, finally.
To be continued - with the ‘second proposal’.
P/s: I want to write a complete love story of mine in one post. However, it seems that I’m too enjoying myself with writing it like a novel.
P/s/s: The real fact is that I am actually busy with my work. I could only spend little time each day online. So, ya.. here is my Part 2. Like Calvin has expected, there will be Part 3 on his second confession. Stay in love my dear readers ?